Fight the Feeling
I have been a bit out of sorts this week: many weekends of travel, fighting the allergy yukkies, and family commitments vying for my attention. I am just not myself. Maybe you can relate.
With all this going on, I have not felt like getting out of bed to meet Jesus. No offense to Him. I love Him more than ever but it has been hard for me to get out of bed to meet with each morning. This morning was no different.
The alarm buzzed. 5:15am. I lifted my head to see the silhouettes of the trees peering through the fading nighttime darkness. Fighting back the tears, I sluggishly walked to my prayer room. As I nestled in my chair I cried, “Help me Lord. I am tired. I am overwhelmed.”
I opened His Word and begin to read. My crusty eyes struggled to focus on the words. God met me there, through the stretches and yawns, ready to encourage me with His ancient words. It was no accident that I found myself in the Psalms.
Psalm 145:14
The Lord helps the fallen and lifts those bent beneath their loads.
145:18-19
The Lord is close to all who call on Him, yes, to all who call on Him in truth. He grants the desires of those who fear Him; He hears their cries for help and rescues them.
The words made my heart worship.
I called to Him in truth and He rescued me. He indeed He heard my cries. I had fallen beneath the heavy load of my circumstances and He lifted me. My circumstances hadn’t changed but my heart had been transformed. Within a matter of moments He brought my heart in alignment with my head. Oh, I love Him.
Many times we react to how we feel rather than reaching for what we know is right. I felt like staying in bed but I pushed past my feelings to reach for what I knew what was right. He was right. Time with Him was right. His Word was definitely right.
Standing on His Word today!
Thank you Wendy…very timely!
Blessings, Lynne
Good to hear you from Lynne. Hope you are doing well.
Thank you for your transparency. So often we (or at least I) think women in ministry have things altogether and I feel “less than” compared to them. Thank you for letting us know that you share in the same struggles.
In Him, Michelle
Girl- I struggle every day. I’m thankful I have sisters in Christ who can fellowship with me.
Blessings
Thank you for sharing your thoughts, I needed to hear this. I was sluggish all day yesterday not able to move or think.. I cried out to our Lord for his help, he showed me you can’t motivate on no sleep. Praise the Lord, he is Good All the Time. Today is a new day and I feel free to be me.. God bess you dear and have a terrific day, Jan
I hope you have a terrific day too Jan! I started my day “right” and everything has turned around.
Thank you Wendy, your title spoke to me right away. “Fight the feelings”. It the feelings that can trip me up.
When I spend time in His living Word, I am refreshed, transformed in spite of circumstances.
Thanks Sally! I feel refreshed today.
Thank you Wendy for being so honest. It hit home because I am there. Have not opened my First 5 app for days and know that I am wrong; have allowed health issues in the family and other ‘trivial’ things to take over my life. Just had a ‘don’t care attitude’.
Today is a new day, and I will turn to Him again. Thank you.
Blessings to you sweet friend. I pray your circumstances turn around soon.
Wendy this is really awesome of you to share.
I have been feeling like that for the pass 3 weeks. I told my hubby that I feel like I’m losing my relationship with God. I was feeling tired and empty. Didn’t feel like doing devotion with my 2 Teen-Men. Been doing devotion with them since they were babies. I use to pray off and on throughout the night as I turn. Then I was not feeling that anymore.
I have been fighting the feelings last week and will continue to do so.
Thanks for sharing.
Let’s keep fighting!
Wendy,
Your words were so encouraging! Our lives are so hectic these days and overwhelming at times that it’s easy to get caught up in the mess and let it consume us. I can so relate to your post today. God bless you precious Sister in Christ!
Thank you, for sharing this! I’m reminded of a inspirational phrase that says….”pray hardest when it’s hardest to pray”…..While I’m going through a time of cancer treatment, God has reminded me that Satan loves apathy and we need to persevere and be persistent in prayer, and I’m working on that.